Time to Re-Evaluate...

Having time to re-evaluate my life lately has brought so many things to light.  In the past I always wanted to please people (to a fault sometimes) and tried to go out of my way to make sure everyone "liked" me.  This led me to neglecting some of the things that matter most to me in my life.  I found myself doing things I didn't necessarily want to do and stressing out about things that were outside of my control. 

With our infertility struggles, I often found myself trying to surround myself with people constantly.  I have recently come to terms with being alone.  Just because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm "lonely".  I have an amazing husband, who I admit, I have totally taken for granted in the past, an incredibly supportive family and a handful of great friends that love me for me, flaws and all.  For so many years, I have allowed our infertility to consume me.  Finding the strength to come to terms with this has been one of the toughest fights I've ever fought.  This doesn't mean we are giving up, it just means that I have found a new outlet to deal with this constant battle.  I am, in turn, trying harder and harder to live my life with the "Everything Happens For A Reason," mantra.

Changing Tides

Every day that goes by, I find myself wanting to be a better person and I'm striving to be exactly that!   Whether it's to improve my relationship with my husband, cultivate my friendships with those that value me or to continue to improve my mental and physical health.

It wasn't until recently that I really started to "find" myself.  I want to wake up every day and be able to say I am truly happy with the person I am and that I am at peace with decisions I have made.  Not all of my decisions will be the right ones and not everyone is going to agree with my decisions, but in the end, they are just that, "MY" decisions.  Gone are the days that I allowed other people to make me feel like I am a bad person.  Gone are the days that I worried about upsetting someone else by a decision that ultimately did not effect them.  Gone are the days that I was uncomfortable in my own skin.

Just as a tide brings in shells, sea glass and beautiful stones, life brings new and beautiful people into your life.  Whether or not you decide to take that walk to see what the changing tide has brought to you, is up to you...