It's Not A Cake Walk

Anyone that thinks being a "Stay At Home Mom" is easy, I have news for you, you are wrong.  Anyone that thinks being a mom to twins is a cake walk, you are so sadly mistaken.  Being a SAHM is messy.  It's exhausting. It's days that start before the sun is up with screaming babies, dirty dishes, mountains of laundry and longing for a 20 minute shower or 15 more minutes of sleep.

Yesterday was one of those days that I wished I could have gone back to bed and started the day over again.  Between an overly fussy baby girl, which is very rare, and an overly active baby boy, I felt like a rubber band that had been stretched as far as it could stretch without snapping. You know that feeling when you are wrapping a rubber band around something and it snaps and stings your hand? Yup, that sums up how I was feeling.  I try so hard to be the ideal mom and a terrific wife.  I beat myself up when the dishes get left in the sink over night.  I cringe when I see two days of laundry accumulating in front of the washer. With that being said, my living room floor is constantly covered in toys, blankets, spit up and empty baby bottles. Everyone tells me that I need to give myself a break and not be so hard on myself, but I can't help to want to get everything done every day.  Reality of it is, with two teething babies, one starting to crawl and one wanting to walk (hence the "perma-bruise on his forehead), I can't do it all. I am incredibly lucky to have a husband that is an outstanding dad. He gets up in the middle of the night to make bottles, he changes diapers and he helps with the cooking and cleaning on his days off, but for some reason I feel like we are never caught up.

I've come to terms with the fact that this is life and I need to just roll with the punches.  There are going to be good days and there are going to be days that are absolute crap, that's life.  If you are a mom, whether a SAHM or a working mom (huge props to you), I'm sure you can relate.  I know I'm not alone on this wild crazy ride of mommy-hood.  When I found out we were having twins, I thought "shoot, I've got this".  Who was I kidding? Having twins is definitely the hardest thing I've ever done, but it also the most rewarding. Hearing them try to say mama, their huge piercing blue eyes and smiles that will light up the darkest of rooms, all incredible moments that nobody can ever take away from me.  As for the bad days, I'm trying to just chalk them up to Gods little tests for me.

When I start to question myself and whether or not I was cut out for this job, I look at pictures like these and I know that while I may not be a perfect mom, I'm perfect to them and that's all that really matters.

A Few of My Favorite Things

Time for a confession. I have an addiction to nice things. Whether it's purses, boots, sunglasses or wine, I'll be the first to admit, I'm a snob. This wouldn't be a problem if I was still gainfully employed, living on a dual income with no kids. But alas, that is not the case.

We went from two decent incomes, traveling when we wanted, buying purses and sunglasses at Louis Vuitton, down to one income and two kids. I hope you aren't reading this thinking that I'm complaining about my kids because that is most definitely not the case. I would give up everything I have for those two beautiful babies.  I just thought you all would like to see a different side of me so I thought I would share some of my favorite things with you along with things I long to see happen in our lives to raise our children in the best way possible.

Wine, yes I love wine, but only good wine.  I grew up in the Napa Valley and couldn't stand this delicious beverage given to us by the unassuming little grape until I started working at two high end restaurants in Napa.  Then that all changed.  While my husband will most likely drink any bottle you bring over to our house, I'm sorry to say I will not. I've been very spoiled when it comes to the world of Napa Valley Cabernet Sauvignon and Zinfandel.  My mom has worked in the industry for most of my life and my dad is a personal trainer to owners of some of the best wineries in the valley. 

This is one of my very favorites. A Caymus Vineyards Cab. 

Bold and big bodied, just like me!

My favorite place for accessories.  The name says it all.

Sure it means I have a purse that only comes out when the sun is shining

And I sport it with jeans and a hoodie, but hey, it's who I am.

My favorite vacation moment. 

We have been fortunate to travel to some gorgeous places. 

We have watched the sun rise over white sandy beaches in Aruba.

We have held a sloth and purchased emeralds in Colombia.

And we have drank the most amazing coffee in Guatemala

But my favorite memory came during this trip to Mexico. 

We had just traversed through the Sierra Madre mountains 

on a series of 12 zip lines and rappelled down a water fall 

to land in this beautiful spot.

After reading all that about me, if you don't know me, 

You'll probably be surprised to learn that one of my favorite hobbies is hunting. 

Yup, you read right, 

I'm a Louis Vuitton carrying, shotgun & rifle slinging country girl. 

I've been known to wear pricey sunglasses out deer hunting.

I've been on the receiving end of funny looks from old men when I let my

English Setter, Bandit, out of the back seat of a bright red Saab

(Which has since been traded in for the soccer mom SUV)

To hunt pheasants and chukar.

And I love turkey hunting a heck of a lot more than I like to shop.

Then there is my two favorite little humans on the planet. 

Seriously, they couldn't be more beautiful!

I want to raise these two with good old fashion values.

I want them to know there is so much more to life 

than the new video game or iPhone.

I want them to play outside until the street lights come on. 

Actually, that's a lie. 

I want them to grow up on a huge piece of property where there are no street lights.

I want them to know that hard work pays off.

I want them to grow up on a property that has this for a view. 

I want to give them the best life we possibly can. 

I know that means bringing them up with values.

It doesn't come from having the fancy purse or sunglasses. 

It comes from quality family bonding, proper guidance 

and respect for one another. 

So there you have it, some of my favorite things. 

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Adios 2013

I seriously cannot believe another year is in the books.  While there were a handful of sad times during this year, nothing, absolutely nothing can over shadow the fact that 2013 will always be one of the greatest years I've ever had.  Sure, my house is still a construction zone and I'm 50 pounds overweight, but I have the two most beautiful, perfect babies I could have ever imagined.   Here's a brief glimpse back at 2013.

Our English Setter, Bandit.  

He laid on my belly like this every day during my pregnancy.

My mom and her best friend threw me the most amazing baby shower

 at Silverado Vineyards in Napa.

I dreamed about the day Shannon Mae Photography would do my maternity photos

May 8, 2013. Eviction day for the twins!

I will never forget this moment

Or this one!

Wow, so tiny! About to walk through the door for the first time.

Meeting Great Grandma Sue aka GG

Our first days at home

She was so tiny!

Meema came to stay with us for a week.

I'd like to see her try to hold them both now!

 Bald Papa multitasking

The hardest moment for me so far in my life came
when we said goodbye to this man.

My grandfather's life was cut way too short
when he passed away on June 19 of cancer.

I chopped my hair off

Peyton won a baby model search facebook contest for a clothing designer

The twins went on their first camping trip

This was also their first trip to the beach

They were baptized

Some of the greatest and funniest moments in 2013 were because of these girls.

My life would seriously be a much more boring place without them.
The laughs are endless with the three of us and
my world is a better place because of them.

2013 also brought a beautiful friend back into my life.

My year was definitely full of love and friendship.

I couldn't be happier.

There were SO many more bright spots in my year.  This is a very brief glimpse at my year and I could go on and on but I've got bottles to make and dinner to start!

Happy New Year to everyone! I hope 2014 is a wonderful year for all!