I didn't realize that I hadn't posted anything since receiving the phone call that would forever change our lives! As many of you reading this already know, we are expecting twins this spring! I've spent the last 4 and 1/2 months trying to wrap my head around the fact that our biggest wish and greatest desire is coming true.
I've had what I can only imagine is a very "easy" pregnancy so far. I didn't experience the dreaded morning sickness and I haven't had outrageous cravings (other than the occasional maple bar). I think this has lead me to, at times, not fully allow myself to believe that this is really happening! After wanting something SO badly and for SO long, and then finally hearing it was coming true, I've had a very hard time believing it was really happening. I had gotten to a place where I stopped believing in the power of prayer and positive thinking, began to question my faith and quite honestly, had all but given up on this dream. For the first trimester, I continued to convince myself that something was wrong between each and every doctors appointment. Now, as my belly is getting bigger (every day I swear), not sleeping at night from the pain in my hips and experiencing both of these little miracles kick, I think I've finally realized that this is not a dream. Nobody is going to pinch me to wake me up from this dream!
Our twins (Peyton Margaret and Lukas Wendell), are due in May and I've already started counting down the weeks until we get to hold them, cuddle them and frankly, spoil the heck out of them! My Pinterest pins have been taken over with cute baby shower ideas, items I think I need (which I'm sure most of them I won't) and my closet is already starting to fill up with items that I just couldn't pass up on! Usually by this time of year, I'm counting down the weeks or days to our annual trip to Mexico. But that has been placed on the back burner for much bigger and exciting things this year!! I've been sitting here for days trying to figure out how to transition this blog from a blog that was full of so much sadness and let down, to a happier place and what in the world would I write about now! So, I hope you will all follow me on this journey from a broken and lost woman that couldn't conceive to a woman that is about to have her biggest wish granted. I know this next chapter is going to be far from easy, but I'm ready for it!
